OK Wait! Before I go any further, let me explain.
Last month I did "30 Days of Letting Go of things that no longer serve my Highest Good". During this time, I realized that it is time for me to let go of my "Pilates Instructor Identity". I’m not closing the studio and I'm STILL teaching Pilates, I just wanted to get your attention. Did I do a good job?
I’ve been teaching Pilates for 17 years now and it’s never been my “dream” to own a Pilates Studio, it just kind of happened. When I opened my studio, my goal was to make affordable, QUALITY, Pilates - utilizing Pilates equipment - available in Lawrence; and then go on to become a psychologist.
Six-months after I bought this equipment, I went to inpatient treatment for alcoholism and instead of staying sober, I began a six and a half year journey through the depths of addiction. Needless to say, I never became a psychologist. However, I was given the vision of opening an Inpatient Addictions Treatment Center a year into this journey. Although, it took another five years before my journey out of addiction began, this vision has never left me.
July, 11, 2011 - 5 years ago - I let go of alcohol.
Last month, 5 years later, I decided it was time for me to let go of my “Pilates Identity”.
I’ve decided it's time for me to create a Wholeness Center that has a Pilates Studio in it, versus a Pilates Studio that offers “other stuff”. Over the past 3 years I’ve created a Personal Power Retreat Program and a 12-Week Personal Power Evolution, finished my Bachelors Degree in Psychology, and began studying different forms of Breathwork and Healing Touch.
When I think about all of the things I’ve been doing and writing about in my newsletters, I can’t help but ask myself - “What about Pilates?”
Pilates is still here. Pilates will always be here. Pilates itself is the gift that has, inadvertently, allowed all of these “other things” to be possible. Pilates has given me the opportunity to expand, evolve, and grow. However, I finally realized that holding onto my identity as a “Pilates Instructor” has begun to hold me back in following my dream. So it’s time to let go of this identity and step into the identity of my Authentic Self ~ whatever that may be.
Every weekend, this past June I participated in a different sacred ceremony, from Sweat Lodges to Spiritual Initiation’s. It was a very deeply healing month for me on many levels. And then, on July 3, Tony Burroughs came to the studio to share his wisdom and hold an Intender’s Circle. This was an incredibly moving and amazingly powerful event. The studio (now Wholeness Center) was filled with around 30 people from Lawrence and surrounding areas, even my parents and brother came from Wichita to be a part of this event.
This gathering of wonderful people, along with the support from my family, was the catalyst that has sparked my movement forward. Pilates opened the doors to this personal evolution of mine. However, the reality is that NONE of this would be possible without the love and support I receive from my parents. Whenever anyone thanks me for the work I’m doing, I always tell them to thank my parents too, because they allow the work I’m doing to be possible.
Now I'm saying it here: "THANK-YOU MOM & DAD! I LOVE YOU!"
And Thank-You to everyone reading this. For without your love and support, none of this would be possible either.
Peace, Love, and Lots of Hugs!
KC Bushnell has been teaching Pilates for 17 years and has unknowingly been on a path of self-discovery just as long. The last decade of her life, self-empowerment has been at the forefront of her life everyday.